I am so very thankful for forgiveness today. By definition forgiveness is “the act of forgiving: to cease to feel resentment against an offender.”
Some days more than others I need forgiveness. Today is one of those days I would call a “mom fail”. Already today I have lost my patience, spoke harshly, and have not been as sympathetic to the needs of my child as I would have liked to. Yesterday and today have both been trying days and the mommy guilt has been eating away at me. I’m disappointed with my own behavior and responses. How could I have handled our “rough patches” differently? If I had kept my cool, would my child have had his meltdown?
As the tears trickle down my face, nothing can be done but apologize and learn. Apologizing to your child is hard. You don’t want your child who looks up to you to see your shortcomings and the way you have failed them. I don’t like disappointing my boys. They depend on me to teach them, to encourage them, to take care of them, and mostly to love them. And when something interferes with that dependency, we need to make sure to make it right… and sometimes it is nothing more than the words “I’m sorry.”
So today at naptime, I curled up next to my sweet, sad boy and told him I was sorry. His little arms wrapped around my neck as he said, “I forgive you, Mommy. I love you.” Then he kissed my forehead and snuggled up next to me.
Those words are so precious. So honest and heartfelt.
In teaching the boys about forgiveness, we often talk about Romans 5:8, “While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Even when I feel so undeserving, Christ keeps loving me. He forgives me. He uses these “rough patches” to mold my character and point me toward Him. I am forever grateful for this. And I am thankful for my child showing me Christ’s love through his simple words of, “I forgive you, Mommy.”