FYI — Brad encouraged me to write this post to you… please read.
As I’ve been preparing to launch this blog, I’ve been writing like crazy. I want this to be a community of moms and women that is relatable. In doing so, I’ve delved into some personal issues about me, my character, my faults, and our family.
I’ve read each of my posts to my husband for his approval since I am exposing some delicate details of our life. Finally, I just flat out asked him what his thoughts are. He tends to be very reserved. There have been a few instances over the last 10 years where I’ve shared stories that he didn’t appreciate. He thought I was doing so to embarrass or expose him when, honestly, I did so only with the intention of sharing a moment I thought was adorable… a side of him most people aren’t privileged to see. Therefore, I wanted to make sure he was comfortable with my sharing with all of you.
He told me he was particularly surprised I included his comment about my overuse of threatening to spank in the post “Discipline Jars – Part 1: Why We Needed Them”. When I asked him to elaborate he said, “It’s not because I said it or I’m afraid of it sounding mean, but rather because of not wanting people to think poorly of you.”
The rest of our conversation went something like this:
Me: It was really hard for me to write that. I don’t want people to know that about me. It’s sad. I absolutely don’t like that part of me and it embarrasses and shames me to admit it to everyone. I have actually cried while writing a few of the posts, but I would feel like a complete hypocrite if I didn’t share that with my readers. If I want to them read me, I feel like I need to be real with them. Both the good and the bad.
Brad: I think that’s only fair, but I’m sure it’s hard. I think hearing you admit things like that will resonate with many moms. I think it will help them know they’re not alone. And I think this is post-worthy. Your readers need to know this about you.
For those that know me personally, I am real, I am honest, I am blunt (and maybe too much sometimes). Therefore, when I admit to you my faults and how we are struggling, I am humbly sharing with you from my heart the areas that I am most vulnerable. However, I would be lying to you if I didn’t share these things.